Friday, November 24, 2006
cold rainy night -
e water jus flows down e cheek
as i sing
sing to the memories
the days
when everything seemed so fine
while im here now
singing e song of letting go
to break free
away from e prison of my own
e prison of sadness
What a feeling!
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
that just is the exact lyrics for me at this point of my life.. Sorry.. but im at a lost for words or wad i should do now.. to jus try to keep myself frm thinking bout u? though near impossible.. or is this another spite.. though i doubt so.. u contradict ur words and im totally lost.. i asked u rmbed e words i wrote on ur hands..but its over anyway.. u said u do and said do you think its ok by saying its over.. wad u meant by that.. jus wad u meant.. then.. i went to find u.. told u in person.. u told me we cant be together.. ok.. i didnt cherish e chance i had.. but.. wads ur feelings for me now.. i really wanna understand u.. u keep things to urself.. now.. seems we're avoiding each other.. even coincidentally meet outside things become so bloody awkward.. has our relationship come to a stage where ending is e only choice?.. have u really given up on me?..
i remember everything...
e first time i held ur hands at princess road crossing to take a cab to ps to watch infection.
every words of urs.. i took in seriously.. i tried my best to get everything u wished..
i cared for you.. you know it...
always woke earlier to go dip the towel in boilin water for u at e hotel so tht u wun nid to step on e cold toilet floor...
searched almost everyshop tht sells aasics shoes.. ur t.t shoes..
now things have become so cold.. and e feeling is unbearable..
i jus .. really.. dunno.. wad to do..
What a feeling!
听到我的电话响了一生就暂停
会不会是你我总怀疑
因为这原因心情不稳定
我们之间的问题是我不相信你
敏感又多心怕你变了心
因为爱你害怕失去你
爱的天气总是阴晴不定
爱的情绪也在欢笑中哭泣
(baby)想对你说生对不起用错了方式去爱你
因为我太在意(如果没有你)
我的世界只剩回忆每天只面对孤寂
以来不及在说我爱你
自从那天分手后停不住泪滴
想念一个人
能忘记自己让我爱你什么都愿意
爱的天气总是阴晴不定
爱的情绪也在欢笑中哭泣
(baby)想对你说生对不起用错了方式去爱你
因为我太在意(如果没有你)
我的世界只剩回忆每天只面对孤寂
以来不及在说我爱你
(baby)想对你说生对不起用错了方式去爱你
因为我太在意(如果没有你)
我的世界只剩回忆每天只面对孤寂
以来不及在说我爱你
如果能在遇见你把你抱紧
从此步分离决不放弃我要告诉你
os:baby i'm sorry
What a feeling!
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
its hard to find someone u love and loves you too
its harder to sustain a relationship to make it last
but
its hardest is to forget and let go the person u love
What a feeling!
Saturday, November 18, 2006
one chanced missed
one's happiness gone
i missed it
and i seriously hate myself
for that
3 years
for 3 years
i was being a guy
tht didnt dare to xpress
my thoughts and feelings
for fear it might be negative
3 years later
now..
i serously bloody hate myself for not daring
to xpress myself
god kill me plz
dun make me undergo this torture anymore
i just love her and there is nth
anything i can do to make her feel e same
again...
small little things i did for u
not noticable
but once added up
you'll see how much
i really like u
chances for me are near zero
but i'll remain the same
i once wrote with my finger on ur hand
" i like you "
it still is the same
now..
as always
What a feeling!
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
are there system restore for humans?.. regrets are things tht make one feel like standing on e edge of e roof and feel the wind.. i jus realised e biggest regret in my life.. total lost.. i lost .. and im lost.. wad next.. i dun wanna lose her.. even as a fren.. im so fucked... can somebody drive to my hse and jus bang me..
I never meant the things I said
To make you cry
Can I say I'm sorry
It's hard to forget
And yes I regret
All these mistakes
I don't know why you're leaving Me
But I know you must have your reasons
There's tears in your eyes
I watch as you cry
But it's getting late
Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know
Remember when we scratched our names into the sand
And told me you loved me
But now that I find
That you've changed your mind
I'm lost for words
And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand
You won't understand
How much it hurts to let you go
Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know
All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right
But if you turn your back on me now
When I need you most
But you chose to let me down
Won't you think about what you're about to do to me
And back down...
Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
(Yeh yeh yeh)
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
I guess I'll never know...
e best things to describe me are songs.. confiding in them.. and releasing myself thru them.. smile? tht word will be sth torn out frm my dictionary for the time being.. i jus hope.. everything's well for u cause i didnt noe i caused disappointment to u either.. life's a joke.. and every joke will come to an end.. end of e misery
What a feeling!
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
twice bitten thrice cried.. somehow.. i have alot to type but i cant think of how to type.... e disappointment i have on myself is enough to make myself stab e knife in my own heart... so god jus hafta pick me to do feel these stuff.. i've no strength to curse n swear or even blame anyone for this xcept myself.. im like a lifeless soul now.. drifting... leave me alone for a few days alrights.. i'll be alright
Guys drinks to forget about the girl...
Girls drinks to think back about that guy..
When guys are in love, they become
poorer
But when girls are in love, they become
prettier
Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..
Guys care most about the quantity of
love...
But girls care most about the quality of
love..
Guys break-up when they feel love from
another Girl...
Girls break-up when they feel
Separation from her man...
Guys feels curious towards all girls...
Girls feel curious towards the guys who
are Interested in her..
When guys are heartbroken, they try to
forget the girl by going out with other
girls...
When girls are heartbroken, they try to
find his Characteristics from other
guys...
Guys wishes to be her first love....
And girls wishes to be his last love...
What a feeling!
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
" PEople Change " i heard this from 2 ppl today.. lol.. but well.. changes sometimes are so great that i cant adapt to it... reality is harsh.. a perfect nice person can turn into a plotting evil one.. well.. cant read e future..
having hols now.. swimming starts tmr.. woohoo.. finally.. long awaited day.. hahahha.. my REN SHEN ZHUAN LIE DIAN!! WAHAHAHA
What a feeling!
Saturday, November 11, 2006
thoughts of u frequently in my mind.. but .. i think.. i dont know you.. at all... u're complex.. ive tried to think at e brighter side but i cant.. maybe i think too much as i always do.. but i cant help it.. who am i to u.. or what am i to u.. on e verge of bonkers... and i just cant help it.. im so fucked..
training started... gonna take my mind off everything... for this few months.. hopefully get a job also.. im gonna swim to my light.. to find e purpose of my existence.. lol.. thts emo..
oh and The Covenant was nice.. sort of dragonball anime.. hahahaha.. but its cool... yeap
What a feeling!
